Emotions

This morning I woke up feeling kind of lazy. I thought I would be happy just lounging around holding Bryan and not accomplishing anything.

Then it hit me. I have so much time to do quite a bit of stuff if I could manage my time. I also thought of all of the things I've been wanting to accomplish.

• Laundry, ha don't we all want to accomplish that?
• Doctor appointments for Bryan, he is now a normal Hardy boy, he is constipated! Plus I still need to get that second opinion for his tongue tie.
• I need to make dentist appointments for the older kids, but in order to do that I need to find a dentist that works with our insurance.
• I've been wanting to go through what feels like a mountain of papers that are all over the house.
• I still need to go visiting teaching. I really want to do this because I love the sisters I visit and I really like to meet with them each month. But in order to do this I feel like I need to burden someone with two of my kids and in the afternoon 4 of my kids. I feel like that is a lot to ask and it is hard to just call someone and ask.
• The list just seems to go on and on.
• Oh, another thing, a friend gave me a code to get a free 8X8 book on shutterfly. I am so excited to use it, but I need time to put it together and that expires in two days.
• I keep trying to exercise. I can use my air climber and hold Bryan at the same time, and I have a really cool stationary bike thing. But I can barely get on my bike and if Bryan is not asleep I sure can't get on with him.

I ate horribly today. I think I had graham crackers and milk for lunch, then I topped it off with oreo cookies. I guess I can say at least we had tuna sandwiches for dinner with fresh cut veggies and strawberries. End the day right.

Sometime this morning Jacob yelled down the hall, "Mom, I want to wear undies now." So naturally I asked, "are you going to go poopy in the toilet?" He paused and said, "Um alright I will." And guess what?!? He DID!!! Here I have been stressing that he will be six before he finally gets it. I know he's not trained till he is truly trained but he said what he said and I hope he doesn't go back on it.

Another cute thing happened this morning. Matt had gathered all of us into the kitchen to have a family prayer, Matt asked Jacob to join us and it was taking him a while to get out to the kitchen. So, we told Jacob that we would start the prayer without him. All through the prayer Jacob is yelling to us, "I'm still coming." "In 4, 5 I'll be there." "Almost done." "Kay, Papa I'm coming."

Well, Bryan is crying yet again. Guess I better get. Just had to get it out, on how my day went, little emotional. But I am grateful for my family and that I get to have the role of Mother. As soon as I get a grip on things life will be good again. It is a big adjustment having a husband home to having him gone again.

I will be getting a moby wrap in the mail soon and I think that will help. I tried one and it was wonderful. I hope Bryan gets used to it quickly. I do love holding him, I just need my hands.

Something New

For the last three babies my Mom has made blessing outfits for the baby plus white clothes for the older kids.

So we like to get the kids dressed in their whites, go to the temple and take some photos.

We've updated our blog, so come take a look!!

Sticky Fingers

I remember when I was about six or seven we were at the grocery store. I saw a big bin of pacifiers. I wanted one of those so bad! I asked my mom if she could buy one for me. She said no, like any good mother would. But I really, really wanted one. So, while she wasn't looking I put one in my pocket. We continued to walk the isles. The guilt kept sinking deeper and deeper in my soul. We got to the cashier, I quickly said, "Mom, I will be right back." I ran through the store and put that pacifier back and ran back to my mom.

Today I was at goodwill with Abby, Jacob and Bryan. Abby asked if they could get something. I said, "no, not this time." Abby said, "then I am going to look on the floor for something." I said, "well you can't keep whatever you find."

I find a pair of pants for David and then we go to check out and then we get out to the van. Abby said, "oh, I am so glad that we are back at the van." She then took of her soft sole ballet slippers and pulled out a pretty bracelet, and some pieces of plastic that probably came off toys or something.

Part of me just wanted to get into the car and go home. Then something said to me, this is small but the next time it could be lots bigger.

So, I sighed and said, "okay, we need to take this stuff back."

Abby said, "okay mom, I will wait in the van and you can take it back."

Me, "no, this is something you need to do."

Abby, "so, when we get inside can I just put it back on the floor and then we can leave?"

Me, "no."

As we get closer to the door

I said, "I need you to tell the lady that you are sorry that you took these, then give them back."

Abby, "how about if you say that?"

Me, "nope."

So, we get inside and I hunt for a cashier that is old, hoping that they won't just say, "oh, it's okay you can keep it."

We have to stand in line. I couldn't wait any longer so I interrupt the checkout process that was going on. I felt bad but I had a baby that needed to get out of the store.

Abby quickly and quietly said, "I'm sorry I took these."

The cashier looked like she got a little emotional and said, "oh, well thank you very much, thank you for coming to our store I hope you come back real soon."

I mouthed thank you to her as Abby hid behind me. She held my hand all the way to the car. I could even feel her trembling a bit. I don't think she will try that again.

Lighten Up

It's funny that as soon as you (the parents) lighten up then the kids show that they are truly happy with being photographed. These kids sure are a lot of fun.

A Few Things

Sunday: I was in the mothers lounge nursing Bryan and Jacob was with us. Jacob witnessed a one year old boy get his diaper changed. As the diaper was going on Jacob said, "Look, Mom he has diapers like mine." Being the mean mom that I am I said, "He sure does and he is a baby, you are a big boy... you can wear underwear." Jacob looked at me very seriously and said, "Be nice Mama." I was then like the wide mouth frog that said, "oh."

Monday: Bryan went in for his two month check up. He is 12.3 pounds 80th percentile for his age and he is about 23 1/2 inches long 75%. I was in shock that he is so big, I am so glad that I see him as just a little guy still.

Tuesday: Today, David said that another kid at school said, "We should call you 'poo poo David'." David replied with, "P. U." The other kid just laughed and all was well. That was an awesome response David!!